Streaks of blood I watch
Streaming down the hand
Countless scars on scars
Starting where they end
Tag: mental health
Arise
At the end of the day
Is the emptiness called tomorrow
And everything seems to change
But it is different kinds of same
And I will not hide anymore
While everything is ablaze
Pain
A hollowed chest
Pangs of emptiness
Gun’s been aimed
At heart untamed
Through and through
Feelings of blue
Cuts and scars
Hope travels afar
Pain is a four-lettered word
Pain makes you a caged bird
Pain makes you cry liters worth
Pain there is nothing worse
Cross my heart
Hope to live
A war inside
Battle each night
Conquer a demon
Despite the screaming
Life force dying
Energy is fading
Pain is a four-lettered word
Pain makes you a caged bird
Pain makes you cry liters worth
Pain there is nothing worse
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My Fault
I am the most selfish person you’ll meet
I care only about myself, my problems, and my feelings
I am blind to what you’re going through you see
I know I don’t deserve to live, exist or breathe
Killer Amour
What is this power you hold over me?
This power that I find hard to resist
Is there a way to cease and desist?
You say you love me; no insist
Damn This
Oh, damn this day
Just damn this life
I’m sick of giving
And living in pain
I want you to imagine this – one day of your life. In a dark, never-ending dungeon. Let us start at midnight. I let you sleep for half an hour in the most uncomfortable bed with very little ventilation. When the half-hour is up, I punch you in the stomach, hard. For the next half hour, I let you go around doing whatever you want, but you have to carry with you a backpack filled with stones and gravel, while speakers around you scream all kinds of discouragements – “You’re not good enough” “Nobody gives a damn about you.” “You look ridiculous.” “They are laughing at you.” “You are fake.”. Sometimes all you hear is a loud, mind-crushing high-frequency sound. You scream back at those voices, but it doesn’t make any difference. You can try to ignore them, but you can still hear them, loud and clear. You want to say, “I don’t care. It’s okay.”. You want to let it go. But eventually, you get exhausted. Ultimately, it gets to you. When the half-hour is up, I punch you hard again and then let you sleep in the same uncomfortable bed with the least amount of ventilation. This goes on and on, till the end of the day.
Are You Okay?
I find a spot. I sit down and cross my legs. Leaning back, I hug myself. I close my eyes. Ignoring the world. Ignoring the pain. Ignoring everything. I breathe. And I wait.
Nothing. Nobody. No one asks me the single question that would show me that someone cares. Three simple words. With genuine concern. “Are you okay?”
My Beautiful Death
Death, she opens her arms wide for me
Beckoning me to rest in her arms and sleep
Instilling me with a sense of calm and peace
She is not the scary woman who can’t be appeased
The Dark Companion
I seek solitude in the dark. I shut down the laptop, turn off the music, switch off the lights, sit on my bed, and seek comfort in the dark. Darkness has become a part of me. The nothingness reaches out to me, engulfing me into its darkest depths.